Feeling Torn

It’s March Break here which means (a) I can’t go to any adult public skates during the day this week because I’m home with two kids and (b) my kids are at home looking for things to do.

One of the things Speed Skating Son wants to do over March Break is come see me skate. It’s not like he’s never seen me skate. We typically go out once a week to a regular, kid-infused public skate but due to my inability to stop and not wanting to kill other skaters, I don’t really do much. It’s more me practicing balance and anything that can be done slow.

My speed skating class is at 10:10 p.m. but since it’s March Break and he can sleep in the next day…he kinda wants to come. And while part of me is all “okay, you can come”, the other part is really hesitant. I’m not sure why.

It’s one thing for me to suck in class in front of all the other people taking the class because they’ve been there since day one, so they know I suck and I’m kinda used to it. As E. once said, “What happens in Masters Class, stays in Masters Class”.

It’s a whole other ball of wax to have my whole fam damily watching me from the stands.

It’s freaking me out a bit but I know if I said no he would be disappointed.

And gawd love this kid because he is the most encouraging little guy in the world, always wishing his competitors a good race and offering a pat on the shoulder before they get into position. He went from not wanting me to speed skate to being my biggest supporter.

I think part of me doesn’t want to disappoint him or worse, have him lie to me. Because he’ll do that, he’ll tell me I’m doing great even if I’m not and the thought of that just sort of hurts my heart a bit.

So ya, I’m torn.


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Sharon DeVellis is a mother, wife and writer who can uncork a wine bottle in less than 10 seconds but buys twist-offs for emergencies. She’s currently in therapy to stop talking about herself in third person.
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9 Responses to Feeling Torn

  1. Emma says:

    Bring him on the ice.

    • Sharon says:

      Thank you for making me spit laugh yesterday. Tell you what….if you can get me on my outer edges next year I’ll buy you a ticket to do the CN Tower Edge Walk – an edge for an edge.

  2. Your class is at 10:10pm??? Every week? WOW! I can’t even tell you how much that impresses me. By 10pm all I want to do is go to bed! You are such an inspiration… let your son watch you skate… it just may inspire you as much as you inspire us.

  3. Kat says:

    Let him come watch. He’s proud of his mom, probably most of all for trying when he knows you don’t have to. It’s a great example.

  4. Jen Banks says:

    We are our own worst enemies. He will be gushing with pride regardless of how you do in your class :)

  5. Steve Kubien says:

    Eeek! Tough call. Humble opinion, let him come. Even if he does lie, so what? You know he’s lying for a good reason…because he loves you. Envision this…

    You: “How is you pasta Speedskating Son?”.
    Him: “Just great Kick-ass-Speedskating Mom”.
    And you know he’s lying then because even you hate your pasta but you couldn’t face ANOTHER night of chicken nuggets.

    You are giving it everything you’ve got (skating and pasta-wise) and he’s going to love and admire you for it.

    Let him love and admire you.

  6. mara says:

    Don’t be torn. Let him come. Your kids are pretty dang cool, and will really appreciate the show you’ll give them.

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